Next week it will be 9 months since I was laid off.
Temperatures are dropping, this is the last day of summer. Autumn is slowly setting in, with misty mornings and a sleepy sun still trying to slow down the inevitable process of autumn.
My apple tree survived the rain, the apples are slowly riping, getting redder every day.
Through these 9 months, I guess I’ve been through all phases of crisis. Chock, depression, bitterness, revenge, frustration, anger, loneliness and now… boredom.
I’m so ready for some changes. And they are coming, I just don’t know yet what’s in the loop for me.
Do you know that feeling where you can sense with every fibre in your body that something is coming up, but you don’t know yet what it is? That’s how I feel at the moment.
A friend of mine believes in the law of attraction and the power of visualisation. I’m really not into that, but I gave it a shot. So during the summer I’ve visualised my dream job, I’ve prepared dinners for the freezer, bought new clothes and getting mentally ready for the job. Now I just need to get that job…
Off course I have used my network, I have lots of applications sent out, thinking of a job doesn’t get you one. You need to be proactive, that’s what I’ve always learned. But now I haven’t heard anything for the last two weeks, no invitations for interviews, no rejections, just nothing.
This void or limbo where things can go in either a very positive or negative direction, makes me feel like I’m in a bubble right now.
This week a lot of other things has happened. I can’t really point out exactly what is going on, but something is definitely happening. There are so many lose ends at the moment which need to be tired together and I can’t really see which ones should be connected. So I’ve decided to let the universe do the job for me (as my friend told me to) and wait for things to happen.